i just don't know how to start and what to say .
i don't know to feel happy or what ?
it's like finally able to gain so much freedom .
and something happen again.
i really don't know what to say anymore .
i may feel hurt .
but there's nothing i could do .
i may be keeping quiet about everything .
i don't wish to hurt you more .
but i did .
the second time already .
i really hope this is my last time .
i really don't want to repeat my mistakes.
it's like i really don't know what to do anymore .
I'm still thinking .
should i continue or give up .
i felt very selfish..
maybe i shouldn't be living on earth .
meeting them .
am i thinking too much .
why am i caring about you so much .
why is it that I feel so hurt when i talk to you .
even when we are not talking .
i can't stop you anymore .
you can do whatever you want already .
i shouldn't care so much anyway .
it's like being a busybody .
you may seek help .
but i already know.
it can never be me .
I'm stealer right ?
I'm just being so unreasonable .
this is what i get when i do things wrong ?
then maybe .
i regretted what i did .
not to mention anything .
i just felt like hurting myself .
today. tomorrow and so on .
not hurting anyone anymore .
but my own self .
-i'm sorry .